Thursday, August 04, 2005
depression..
i felt so depressed without any reason.
just having bad mood swings.
i don't know why i just felt that the world is picking on me.
everything dosen't seems to turn out right.
i am really sorry for all these causes
and i think it's simply all me who made all these mistakes.
these world is so hypocrite.
the world is changing.
every one is changing be it the way they feel or the way they do things.
the world is dangerous.
i seen beautiful images of this world but all these could only leave a path of memory
in my mind.
why do people compare? why do people share?
things are not as innocent and simple like those times i had in the past.
all have passed.
every thing is gone.
the good and innocent memories did not surpass those of the bad ones.
it felt so horrible.
how i wish i could turn the time back when i was just a kid.
if i were a kid, i would not be so defensive and would never allow my mind to think in a negative way. all the mistakes i've made, i apologise.
but will the world forgive me?
humans are smart creatures who creates troubles.
that's the cause and effect of the lfe cycle.
8:14 PM
i will never give up on you;
Thursday, July 07, 2005
kinda bored
hey peeps.. i'm back to my bloggie thingy again.. haha.. sorry for not updating my blog regularly cos i was busy with all my O level stuffs. i'm afraid that i might not be able to pass this O level thingy. "it's just an ordinary examination which only last for 7 days". oh well. it sound so easy to be said than done. seriously thanks joni jie, u motivated me so much. i wont disappoint u my dear. i will try my best and work hard kae. if fail the most is either waste one more year in that stupid school or head towards ITE. but ITE 2 years lehx. so fustrating. haha. O level oral is coming wishes all of u the best and score high!
let's side track, yesterday me and lynn talked about similarities and difference. i can tell u that she is so interesting and always catch no ball. haha. communication breakdown. lolz. always have to explain to her then she will ask so many "whys". haha. don't know why we just clicked so well. one thing good about her is she don't flare temper. she always stands on her views and always very confident of her words. you just can't doubt her saying. haha. when we have different views, we argue like we were debating. it's fun to have her. she makes me believes that as long as you are sincere to do something , you will succeed.
sincerity comes from one's heart and being fustrated can never solve a thing.
since i have not been blogging for so long i shall say about the YCF performance which was held at the expo on the 2nd of july, saturday. it was a great success! well done peeps! i've got good response from my friends and i would like to congratulate every one! oh ya, do u know we actually created a rainbow outside the expo at ard 2++pm? and it links to our theme. it is so great of the gohonzon, the mystic law.
nothing is impossible.
6:37 PM
i will never give up on you;
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
2.4km
my god! today was graduating classes 2.4km run.
this year slack alot! so sad. first year i slowed down and walk!!!! my god!! this neer happen before.
it's counted my history.
*sigh* today's weather wasn't that good in the afternoon
the sun was so super scorching and i was dehydrated.
my friends were all suffering too.
when i was running the 5th run i almost gave up.
i was like getting a heat stroke and
my feets were burning, just like gonna caught on a fire.
when i ran back to register,
everyone starts to complain.
this year everyone was veh unhappy with their results.
we aimed high.
i aim to get a gold so i could attain 5 years gold.
hope i will be able to make it.
friday would be our 5 items test, i am really scared my shutter run could not make it.
*sigh* *ouch* just now i got a twist at my waist there it's so painful. don't ask me how i sprained myself.
i'm just so clumsy. haha. =P
well..
hope everyone from 5Ns would get what they aimed for napfa!
best of luck! take care. smuackies.
7:02 PM
i will never give up on you;
Sunday, April 10, 2005
miss him..
good afternoon!! sorry for not updatin g these few days.
my brother was using the comp for the past few days, therefore i cant use it.
well, i think now me life is meaningful.
i have lynn as my soulmate now,trust her.
it was realli bored now.
nothing for me to do.
i could only remembered ytd i went to sentosa.
with my relatives: marcus family day.
ytd was amksian family day and family was invited so i was there.
we played the whole day and woke up round 7 and reach there at 8.
now i'm so tired and slept for round 12 hours. haha.
ytd i had so much fun whole day.
round evening me and marcus went for cycling and blading.
i fall as i hold his bike at the back i rolled off.
*ouchie* so painful i screamed!
when i went home from grandma house, it was round 11 when i reached.
at night i dreamt of him again.
once again to say i miss you!
2:47 PM
i will never give up on you;
Friday, April 01, 2005
sad
i have been thinking for nights and days,
how i wish that i could be with u forever.
i prayed and flashed back the memories we had together,
i last moment i had with u and things we did.
everything just seems so perfect during those days,
but that don't last.
how i wish time would just freeze at that moment,
how i wish i would always stay in my fantasy and dreams,
life seems so bored without u.
wishes u to stay. please never go. baby, i love yoo..
9:18 PM
i will never give up on you;
Monday, March 28, 2005
sianz
argh!! my pimples become rotten more and more worst.
haha. eek! so bored. life seems so meaningless without you.
i miss ya so much. it have been a long time since i last have this kinda feeling. so boredi now. i cut my hair. lolx. it look so funny. lolz. i am so bo liao! haha. donno wad to say today i've got nothing on my mind. would u wan to know wad i did? lolz. it's bored rite. well jus slept whole day. wahahaha.
10:14 PM
i will never give up on you;
Friday, March 25, 2005
borEdi
sunny morning! another brand new day today.
gonna enjoy myself out with ji mei and friends!
going watch the eye 10. *sCaRED* aiz but kana physco so must go. haha. today it's my kor gerald's bdae. happy birthday!
so sianz. later reach home liao if got time the blog again bahx. tataz. take care(^.~)V SMuACkiies.
2:50 PM
i will never give up on you;
