m3m0ries

depression..

2005-08-04T20:14:00.000+10:00

i felt so depressed without any reason.
just having bad mood swings.
i don't know why i just felt that the world is picking on me.
everything dosen't seems to turn out right.
i am really sorry for all these causes
and i think it's simply all me who made all these mistakes.
these world is so hypocrite.
the world is changing.
every one is changing be it the way they feel or the way they do things.
the world is dangerous.
i seen beautiful images of this world but all these could only leave a path of memory
in my mind.
why do people compare? why do people share?
things are not as innocent and simple like those times i had in the past.
all have passed.
every thing is gone.
the good and innocent memories did not surpass those of the bad ones.
it felt so horrible.
how i wish i could turn the time back when i was just a kid.
if i were a kid, i would not be so defensive and would never allow my mind to think in a negative way. all the mistakes i've made, i apologise.
but will the world forgive me?
humans are smart creatures who creates troubles.
that's the cause and effect of the lfe cycle.

kinda bored

2005-07-07T18:37:00.000+10:00

hey peeps.. i'm back to my bloggie thingy again.. haha.. sorry for not updating my blog regularly cos i was busy with all my O level stuffs. i'm afraid that i might not be able to pass this O level thingy. "it's just an ordinary examination which only last for 7 days". oh well. it sound so easy to be said than done. seriously thanks joni jie, u motivated me so much. i wont disappoint u my dear. i will try my best and work hard kae. if fail the most is either waste one more year in that stupid school or head towards ITE. but ITE 2 years lehx. so fustrating. haha. O level oral is coming wishes all of u the best and score high!

let's side track, yesterday me and lynn talked about similarities and difference. i can tell u that she is so interesting and always catch no ball. haha. communication breakdown. lolz. always have to explain to her then she will ask so many "whys". haha. don't know why we just clicked so well. one thing good about her is she don't flare temper. she always stands on her views and always very confident of her words. you just can't doubt her saying. haha. when we have different views, we argue like we were debating. it's fun to have her. she makes me believes that as long as you are sincere to do something , you will succeed.

sincerity comes from one's heart and being fustrated can never solve a thing.

since i have not been blogging for so long i shall say about the YCF performance which was held at the expo on the 2nd of july, saturday. it was a great success! well done peeps! i've got good response from my friends and i would like to congratulate every one! oh ya, do u know we actually created a rainbow outside the expo at ard 2++pm? and it links to our theme. it is so great of the gohonzon, the mystic law.

nothing is impossible.

2.4km

2005-04-13T19:02:00.000+10:00

my god! today was graduating classes 2.4km run.
this year slack alot! so sad. first year i slowed down and walk!!!! my god!! this neer happen before.
it's counted my history.
*sigh* today's weather wasn't that good in the afternoon
the sun was so super scorching and i was dehydrated.
my friends were all suffering too.
when i was running the 5th run i almost gave up.
i was like getting a heat stroke and
my feets were burning, just like gonna caught on a fire.
when i ran back to register,
everyone starts to complain.
this year everyone was veh unhappy with their results.
we aimed high.
i aim to get a gold so i could attain 5 years gold.
hope i will be able to make it.
friday would be our 5 items test, i am really scared my shutter run could not make it.
*sigh* *ouch* just now i got a twist at my waist there it's so painful. don't ask me how i sprained myself.
i'm just so clumsy. haha. =P
well..
hope everyone from 5Ns would get what they aimed for napfa!
best of luck! take care. smuackies.

miss him..

2005-04-10T14:47:00.000+10:00

good afternoon!! sorry for not updatin g these few days.
my brother was using the comp for the past few days, therefore i cant use it.
well, i think now me life is meaningful.
i have lynn as my soulmate now,trust her.
it was realli bored now.
nothing for me to do.
i could only remembered ytd i went to sentosa.
with my relatives: marcus family day.
ytd was amksian family day and family was invited so i was there.
we played the whole day and woke up round 7 and reach there at 8.
now i'm so tired and slept for round 12 hours. haha.
ytd i had so much fun whole day.
round evening me and marcus went for cycling and blading.
i fall as i hold his bike at the back i rolled off.
*ouchie* so painful i screamed!
when i went home from grandma house, it was round 11 when i reached.
at night i dreamt of him again.
once again to say i miss you!

sad

2005-04-01T21:18:00.000+10:00

i have been thinking for nights and days,

how i wish that i could be with u forever.

i prayed and flashed back the memories we had together,

i last moment i had with u and things we did.

everything just seems so perfect during those days,

but that don't last.

how i wish time would just freeze at that moment,

how i wish i would always stay in my fantasy and dreams,

life seems so bored without u.

wishes u to stay. please never go. baby, i love yoo..

sianz

2005-03-28T22:14:00.000+10:00

argh!! my pimples become rotten more and more worst.
haha. eek! so bored. life seems so meaningless without you.
i miss ya so much. it have been a long time since i last have this kinda feeling. so boredi now. i cut my hair. lolx. it look so funny. lolz. i am so bo liao! haha. donno wad to say today i've got nothing on my mind. would u wan to know wad i did? lolz. it's bored rite. well jus slept whole day. wahahaha.

borEdi

2005-03-25T14:50:00.000+11:00

sunny morning! another brand new day today.
gonna enjoy myself out with ji mei and friends!
going watch the eye 10. *sCaRED* aiz but kana physco so must go. haha. today it's my kor gerald's bdae. happy birthday!
so sianz. later reach home liao if got time the blog again bahx. tataz. take care(^.~)V SMuACkiies.

SuX..

2005-03-24T17:34:00.000+11:00

LiFe is just like the blue sky,

it is bright and then turns dark.

i experienced so many ups and downs,

and i am so tired of this life.

when it's raining,

it's just like me silently tearing.

friends...

friends around me are just like the sun and clouds.

they will brighten up my day,

and slowly it will turns to night.

the sun is just like friends who are close to me but not my soul.

they would be covered but the clouds at times,

then shine again when i am lonely.

yet most of my friends are just like the clouds,

they are so close to me but often just float off like this.

i am just like walkiing in the traffic between the clouds and the sun,

they just passed by me for years but not lasting.

i have not found the rainbow in my life,

yet to find one to accompany me thru my sorrow.

hope that this rainbow would always accompany me

and fill my life with his/her beautiful colours.

i'm alwaeys silently praying,

wish that my rainbow would appear one day,

my soulmate.

i will let you fill my life with your beautiful colours,

show me ur true pureness and sincerity and paint my life.

i will promise not to allow u die,

never let you leave me and disappear just like this.

i am never going to let u leave my life,

i need your beautiful colous to paint my life with joy.

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after school me, my two darlings, xiao wei, ah pangz, feng yi and sherlin went to long john silver. but i have no money to spend and i just didnt eat. haha. hmm. how i wish i could find my soulmate now. so envy xiao wei tat she found her soul. =) take care(^.~)V

boring..

2005-03-23T21:55:00.000+11:00

today is just another normal boring day.
i just felt so left alone all the time
i just don't like this kind of life.
i want to have many friends by my side,
to support me and motivates me to work with them.
i have not been as cheerful as i was supposed to be,
i have been so glumy and attitude.
i just hate who i am now.
can i have back my all my cheerful days,
those days where all my friends were strongly bonded.
those days which i don't have to felt lonely.

Memories..
all have turned into memories,
when i am down i would think of them.
memories had accompanied me through my dark and lonely days.
how i wish this year could pass quickily and i could get in to the poly and enjoy my new life..
hope every thing would turn better tomorrow..
i miss you.. i miss the days when we were together.
miss all the memories..
and now.. i had just missed everything which really is mine.
*Saddies*

t0n9 hUa..

2005-03-22T00:38:00.000+11:00

Listenin9 to tong hua now.. *s0bZ* touchin9 son9.. love this son9 manx.. aiz.. today is a bored day man.. cant wait for good friday to arrive.. haha.. so sianz now.. rottin9 lik hell lor.. haha.. hmm.. today sch obviously is boring rot rot rot rot whole day 9onna left with bone nia le.. i know it's lame.. haha.. i love to b lame =P haha.. *BleAHx* today durin9 assembly told aishah xiao wei and mabel lame jokes.. haha.. aishah lau9h until so cute.. haha.. hmm.. ermx.. now lehx.. i could think of nothin9 except.. wahahaha.. well.. i oni know i wanna b as cheerful again jus lik when i was sec 1 and for9et every thin9 manx.. jus wish to live a simple life with lots of frens by my side!! hehe.. *SmiLeS* h0pe every 0ne could for9ive all my mistakes i've d0ne in the past and help me to brin9 back the cheerful me.. don wish to b soaked in sorrow.. =D misS yA..

dReam of...

2005-03-19T17:22:00.000+11:00

hehe..ytd i dreamt tat me and someone went to a beach taking bus having fun taking photos.. and when we reached there he hold my hand.. it was so nice.. those kind of feeling that i would wish to get.. then the dream last till my brother alarm rang!!! so irritating!! 10 mins ring once!! (-.-) so idiotic.. spoil my dream!! haha.. but then later i dreamt tat we were stead going to married soon at our twenties.. i went to his house bloggin and i sat on his lap.. i looked at him.. then the alarm rang again!! lolx.. aiz.. but all is jus a dream.. hope my dream would come true and these romantic scenario would appear to be true =).. zhu you qing ren zhong cheng juan shu.. =D *SmiLeS* (^.~)V

YeAh...

2005-03-19T14:22:00.000+11:00

*SniFf* tiMe passes so fast.. it's already saturday.. aiz sch gonna reopen soonx.. need to go sch again so sianz.. don feel lik going sch.. can sch jus close down aiz.. it's a nitemare with loads of homworks plus it's a crucial year for me this year.. it's my o level year.. *goodness* oh ya.. ytd nite i didnt blog i wanted to blog in.. but it was late le it was around 12.30 when i reached home.. well.. i went to orchard with lala and darling (pei see) in the afternoon.. then at nite around 8+ i went to find my darlings and frens.. we went to chinatown and eat.. hehe.. after tat we went to esplanade!! so nice so fun so romantic man the place.. on our way to chinatown we went pass newton and far east.. it brought me back to some of our memories.. i teared silently.. =) oh well.. on our way to esplanade my darling ji mei was so cute.. she was hold ah pangz bag and act to b lik rich woman (gui fu) haha.. then we on the way we entertained ourselve and laugh laugh laugh so funny.. but.. i know i abit awkward cos.. haha.. xin zi jiu hao lar.. haha.. hmm.. then on my way home i was so scared there was no bus for me.. haha.. *panicking* some more hp low batt! sway enough rite.. haha.. but luckily got jeslyn accompany me wait for 13 and not long later 13 came.. i am so lucky.. haha.. then i got home.. and slept.... i dreamt of some thing good... =)

s0 SiAnz...

2005-03-18T15:14:00.000+11:00

s0 b0rEd.. haha.. today got physics remedial one but i didnt go.. hehe.. cos ytd i didnt slp well, couldnt get to slp.. then now sitting down here stone.. haha.. this morning 7 i wake up le.. but.. my eyes was still blur.. haha.. i feel lik crying sia.. when i listen to the song tong hua it reminds me of a person again.. every time when i tink of all the memories we had i would tear... some more the song added to the atmosphere... worst.. aiz.. love comes and goes so sudden and it's lik i am a cinderella when it strikes 12 all the scenario have turned to memories.. but i do treasure all the memories.. be it with frens or with my love ones.. i love memories and all those happening things.. i am a person who pursue strong romance.. tat's it.. =) i tink i stoppe here time to do my compo if not j low gonna kill me again.. hehe.. tataz..

Tw0 dAyS aG0...

2005-03-17T20:00:00.000+11:00

heya..hmm.. ehx ehx.. tuesday me shi jie and my darling (pei see) went to k box sing sing worx.. lolx.. it was fun as my mood was terrible these few days.. so lor.. then at there met my another darling (ji mei), ah pang and derek they were at another room screaming lik hell crazy one.. haha.. but when they come join us in our room 55 wahahahaha the atmosphere was great manx.. it rox the whole kbox down lo.. we jump until lik siaoz.. haha.. so fun... aiz.. but when i came home felt so lonely.. start to tink of this and tat again.. miss someone manx... miss ya so muchie... then ytd me xiao wei and darling (ji mei) went to kbox again lolx!!! we k box queen.. lolx.. 3 of us with bad mood went there siaoz.. so fun.. lolx.. after which we went to play pool.. kns.. my skill sux... mi hai my darling(ji mei) lose.. but my darling too pro lar.. haha.. she won 3 match i tink.. but the xiao wei stupid de yao ming more pro lolx.. she keep winning.. lolx... then after tat derek came play 2 rounds.. he keep suan me.. DuiNg~ almost faint.. haha.. after tat we went for dinner at mac.. we compose a new rap oh.. mai siao siao.. haha.. =P kae lar stoppe here first i go mum mum liao... mi so wordy haha.. tataz.. (~.^)V

Aiz...

2005-03-17T17:09:00.000+11:00

goodness... spend my whole day doing this blog again.. lolx.. it has been a long time since i last blog in rite.. lolx.. long time no c frenz.. haha.. hmm.. well.. donno why suddenly feel lik bloggin again but my previous one crash man.. so long nv use blog liao now me abit stuck c my tag board u should know lar haha.. i am so stupid manx.. haha.. aiz.. so stress.. so many homework to do!!! loads man!! argh!! don feel lik studying man.. aiz... some more these few days moodless.. haha..